God is always waiting. Patiently waiting for you to run to Him. Fall into Him. Release all your cares and anxieties on Him. He is always there waiting with open arms. However, sometimes it seems like we just want to make our lives difficult. We want to flail about for a while before we actually give in, before we give in to His perfect plan for that moment or for our lives.

This picture was perfectly illustrated to me during nap the other day. Bubs is a champion sleeper. I’ve mentioned it before so I won’t go too in depth, but he takes a 2 hour nap each day, sometimes a little longer. For some reason the other day he just would not settle. He wouldn’t give in. Maybe he is dealing with his last set of molars coming in? Maybe it was the nice weather and finally having the sun shining? Who knows. What I do know is that I was holding him the way he likes to be held. My arms were wrapped around him and I was/am his safe place. I realized he was having a difficult time and I wasn’t going to just put him down and walk out quickly. I wasn’t going to just leave him. I know him and I know when he needs me and when he doesn’t need me as much.

{We did sleep train and it was the best thing we could’ve done for ourselves, but we didn’t do full on cry it out. We couldn’t handle that. I say this because we often do put him down and he goes to sleep on his own without any issues.}

Once I realized that he wasn’t calming down and he would laugh every once in a while and try to play with me- I did put him in his bed. He fought it. He fought hard. He kept rubbing his eyes and yawning. The kid was tired. It didn’t matter how tired he was though, he wasn’t going to give it up. I went back in to hold him. It only made it worse. I finally brought him out to the living room and we sat on the couch. He kept saying, “night night, night night.” He WANTED to sleep, but something was wrong or he was just fighting it. Either way it made for a rough afternoon. He was just off. Thankfully, we went on a walk and he fell asleep in the stroller. He was so so tired. Our friends were commenting on how different he seemed. He isn’t sick so who knows.

Here’s what I do know. I love bubs an immense amount. It is hard when he is fighting me on something he needs and is good for him. My arms were wrapped around him and I was ready to let him sleep on me so that he could just rest. I wanted to be there for him and I was there for him.

This is just how God is with us. He hates it when we fight him over things that are good for us or the plan He has for us. His arms are always stretched out ready to catch us and embrace us. He is ready to offer us rest and take our burdens. He wants to be there for us.

The beauty of God is that he gives us a choice though. He gives us the choice to fall into Him or to fight Him. He has given us a free will to choose Him. I love this about God. He is there and He is ready, but He isn’t going to force himself on you either. Maybe there is a circumstance where He will make himself more known, but either way, you are always given a choice.

Instead of fighting Him on it. Lean into Him. Rest in Him and the fact the He does know what He is doing. Don’t fight Him. He wants to give you rest. Just like I wanted to help bubs rest, literally. Let God be God and take your burdens. He isn’t going to just leave you. Relax in Him. Run into His open arms.

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